| i kno ppl still read, juss not comment. but i have something on my mind.
this year has been extrememly different from how i pictured it. i've gone so far from the person i thought i was, as well as who i want to be. today was my last math test with ms. meyers and this kinda hurt cuz i know i gave up. i could`ve stayed in the honors math but i didn`t. i am a giver-upper.
most of you know i had a relationship back in the day that was LONG AS HELL. it's hard to imagine, cuz now we're so different, and he may not feel the same, but i know i do. maybe it's cuz i`m being extrememly emotional right now or b/c he was my first, ever. and even tho there have been quite a plethera since him, i don't think anyone has, or will, ever be what he is to me. I KNO, WTF? BRENDA, WHO HAS LIKE 3 BF'S AT ONCE? yea, this was before i started pimpin` it up. haha. jk. but not really. there's a history, and there's memories. & altho it never will be again, it doesn't change what was. sometimes i wish i still was with him, but then no, b/c i wouldn't have had a chance to meet other people, some in which i had some MAJOR fun with. i`m talking FUN---> it was so good.
so. i wanted to say, that if something's right, do it. & if you really want or love something, don't think twice about it.
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